Regardless of how I feel, I will choose to praise You and give the glory to You. Sometimes I feel so empty inside and I wish my emotions could be more palatable for others because I still have that need for approval and I want to be liked by everyone. I don't want to be … Continue reading Because He is worthy
It’s all part of the process
I don't really know what to say, think or feel right now but I've just been processing so much. So many times this year I grew impatient and thought the tough part was finally over. Maybe it's time I finally gave up on pushing so hard for that change I wanted and just let go … Continue reading It’s all part of the process
Idols & insecurities
How do I do it? How do I stop obsessing? I'm so desperate and I hate it—PLEASE just put me out of my misery... I know it's not healthy but I can't stop. I hate that the world has taught me that this is normal. Pretty much everything I watch unless it's Biblical in content … Continue reading Idols & insecurities
Emerging
(Earlier this week) I can feel that lately the light has been gradually getting brighter—consistently—on this journey of mine. God brought me through the wilderness and the deepest valleys. Without them I would be nowhere near where I am now. It was painful as hell but I honestly can say that this has been a … Continue reading Emerging
Your warmth washes over me
It's hard to find words to even think right now; I'm so tired and sleep-deprived. But it's amazing how even spending 2.5 hours at church last Thursday and today has given me so much strength in every way. I felt a warmth fill me from within and wash completely over me. (Almost all the … Continue reading Your warmth washes over me
Overwhelming and undeserving grace
I was feeling overwhelmed since I have to work overtime (60 hours) every week this month—I was seriously at the end of myself and felt so suffocated; how was I going to get through one month of this? Then God answered my prayer. Even though it's still over 40 hours, it's better. I've been also … Continue reading Overwhelming and undeserving grace
I’ve learned so much this season
But some of the most difficult things for me in this trudging season have been: remaining grateful & being patient. One of my long-term goals is to become like Apostle Paul—particularly, how to be content in any circumstance. How did he do this, honestly? Was he just exaggerating? That's how it feels like for me … Continue reading I’ve learned so much this season
I’m starting to see
I think I understand now. I think I can see why I've been having so much insomnia. This has really been a turning point for my walk of faith. I've had such a desperation for God in these times. And even though I could feel like I'm losing my mind, like I'm losing control of … Continue reading I’m starting to see
Heal our land, Lord
“Then if my people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sins and restore their land.” 2 Chronicles 7:14 NLT As I went to the APIH (Asian Pacific Islander Heritage) Fest yesterday … Continue reading Heal our land, Lord
My prayer to You
Give me Jesus. Help my unbelief. Help me rise in the morning to praise You first before everything else. Give me the burning desire to run after You. Change my heart, O God. Let me take pride in everything that complements Your Kingdom, that gives You glory. May I be able to deny my flesh, … Continue reading My prayer to You